aryas_zehral: Hermione holding a book looking at Ron and Harry in the library, over the top are the words "I, I must consult my books" (HP - Consult My Books)
Lol. I suck at subject lines.

1. Work are trying to put me on outbound. Which sucks. Esp since the only reason I agreed to look at call center jobs was so long as they were inbound only. I don't mind talking to people. I don't even mind being yelled at, called a robot, called sweetheart, told I'm useless, talked over, patronised, etc, so long as the person called me and is actually seeking a resolution to the problem (be that by cancelling or by letting me help them if I can). I do mind calling people who have already left to ask them why they left and try and make them come back. I've done outbound before (in a previous job). It was my worst job ever and it made me very very ill. Although the hideous lighting may have had a part in that. However, I'm off for eleven days (in a row!!) so that's enough of that. :D

2. One of my cousin's is getting married on Saturday so I am heading down there with my Mum and my Gran for it. I am not yet packed and I'm supposed to be leaving tomorrow. Whoops.

3. I haven't heard back from any of the universities about either what paperwork I have to do to leave or whether I've got a place (or even any more interviews) on a teaching course. So that's fun. I'm not sure I mind to be honest. I feel like I've lurched from "do PhD" to "do MPhil" to "do teaching" without really taking a break in the middle.

4. Not helped of course by the fact that my Mother keeps telling me that I'm better than my job suggests and that I need to find another job like "now, do it now, now, now now now, your life would just magically be better immediately and you would be fulfilled and happy if only you had another job right now like immediately like why aren't you getting on with it already don't you want to be happy?" When I just want to sit in the corner, lick my wounds, knit random tat, work out what I actually do want and go to work and not have to worry and stress and constantly be trying to get on with something when I'm not sure what the something I want to get on with is. If that sentence even made sense. I feel like I can't settle on a direction because all I get is that its not enough of a direction and even if I did get another job with more money and better hours I'd then have "lose weight, omg lose weight, like now, don't you want babies, if you want babies then you need to lose weight, like now, omg why aren't you losing weight, don't you want to be happy?" and then I'd have "sort out your house, find a new house, omg if you had less stuff - why is there so much random fandom stuff omg - then you'd be free and you could get organised and you won't be happy until you're organised and omg don't you want to be happy?" and then there would be "you need a man, men are nice, not all men are like that guy you used to be with, or that other one, or that other man in your past, or your dad, or the guys at work. you need to be with someone, share your life, you can't possibly be happy, you need a partner, don't you want to be happy? have you considered a woman?" or... you get the idea. I just feel like its never enough and there's so many things I should be doing that I can't even do the things I am doing well. I mean I'm not happy but, you know what, I'm not miserable and I've been miserable. I can get out of bed and function in social settings. Sometimes that's enough for me.

5. I'm tired. I'm going to bed. Sunlight will wake me at 5am (again) so I'm starting to get used to going to bed (relatively) early (for me) (like midnight instead of two). Even though it will wake me I won't go up, I'll just hide my head for a couple of hours. I should make a list of things that I have to do tomorrow so when I get up I can go straight to productive. :D
aryas_zehral: Hermione holding a book looking at Ron and Harry in the library, over the top are the words "I, I must consult my books" (HP - Consult My Books)



{Take the 100 Things challenge!}


So I've been thinking about what theme I could do for this and, since my flist has exploded with this and with so many good ideas, I'm bit at a loss. I'm not sure if I want to do it on something fandommy or something other or something that can be both. I sort of like the idea of 100 reviews/thoughts on things I've read/watched/listened to but I also like the idea of 100 creative postes (i.e. posts about things I've made or done that are creative, so it could be things I've knitted, things I've written, things I've cooked, y'know, things I've made). 100 reviews might be more interesting for all of you but maybe take more thinking for me but then again 100 creative posts might be curious and harder to do.

Kinda tempted to just declare both and do em. Its not like there's an end date on this. Thoughts/suggestions?

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